have you ever seen someone from the past
that one person that you'd thought you'd lost
and had a million buried feelings and memories
come rushing back like a flood?

That one person that makes you doubt your judgment
that same judgment you used when you said those words
"I can't be with you."

Have you ever seen that one person that left
and wondered what would have happened
if that day didn't?

Why did he have to come back into my life?
everything was going so well....

Wow. So I just found out that I guy I knew and used to like, died last october. I didn't know for so long, and if feels like someone kicked me in the stomach now. I remember thinking about him, and wondering why he hadn't talked to me in so long. Now I feel like hell for not knowing. Why are people taken too early?

BWAHAHAHA! Me, Caity, and Glo-baby are starting a society for nerdums. It all started one day when we ditched 7th hour because we got our calzones late. One myspace bullitin started it all.

The Movie:



The most intense movie we have all seen ever. It has started a revolution. We have decided to make it a tradition to watch any movie that is not of the norm either at lunch or after school most days. We are about to start recuiting. This week should be 50's suspense movies and japanese horror flicks. you don't even know how entertaining it is to sit in a room with obscure people and watch movies that we all understand for odd reasons.

Mind blowing? I do believe so

Wow, That's all I can say. I'm speechless. I hate this so much. Why can't I be her, or someone not me. They fall in love and stay there. I wander and run into lust everywhere. It's like a drug now. I replace what I want with something else because I can't stand being alone. You hear that world?! I am sick, tired, bitter and alone. I ease it with a night with someone that means nothing then I move on. I wanna settle down. Not be alone in my bed every night or have a different face everytime. I want one, just one person I know will be next to me every night. One person that knows me and my body in and out. I want a best friend by day and romance by night. I'd give anything for that kind of someone in my life. They're not here so I continue to wander and give into that drug of lust and too much influence. It's life as of now.

I guess I'm single because I'm afraid. I don't want to get close to anyone because it always ends in tragedy. I don't want to be hurt again, so I isolate myself. I'm bitter and alone because I know what will happen if I try again. I wish I would try but that pain is never worth it. All realtionships are the same. No one has ever proved that wrong to me. I'm second rate and they treat me that way. I can't do that anymore so I stay depressed and alone. It's kinda like being in my own little world. I make up excuses on why we can't be anything but the truth is because I'm scared. I won't love you or like you because I know you'll hurt me. I put up a wall, at first it was to see who could knock it down but now it's really to keep everyone out. I'm that afraid. I won't knock it down and I won't let anyone else do it either. I feel like a puppy that's been kicked too many times. I'll lash out at any threat. Maybe I deserve to be alone, that seems to be the only explination for this misery.

It's now 2007 and because I didn't make any last year
I'm going to this year
AND DO THEM
here they are:

1. quit smoking ciggs

2. get closer with my family

3. tone up

4. pay more attention in school

5. no more casual sex

There they are
smack me if I break any of these.

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every section of the movie, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:
Plain White Tee's- Hate (I Really Don't Like You)

Waking Up:
Cartel- If I Fail

First Day at School:
Blood Brothers- Love Ryhmes with Hideous Car Wreck

Falling in Love:
Coheed and Cambria- Wake Up [[perfect]]

Fight Song:
The Acadmy Is...- Black Mamba

Breaking Up:
Senses Fail- Buried a Lie

Prom:
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Your Gaurdian Angel

Life’s Okay:
Christina Agularia- Beautiful [[LMFAO]]

Mental Breakdown:
Eyes Set to Kill- This Love you Breathe

Driving:
Augustana- Boston

Flashback:
Say Anything- Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too [[I'm a pervert...]]

Getting Back Together:
The Early November- Sunday Drive

Wedding:
Death Cab for Cutie- I'll Follow You Into the Dark [[awwwwwww]]

Birth of a Child:
Brand New- Sic Transit Gloria Glory Fades

Final Battle:
Hollywood Undead- No.5 [[HAHAH I love it]]

Funeral Song:
Saosin- 7 Years [[wow weird...]]

End Credits:
Kill Hanna- Raining All the Time [[my movie is depressing...]]

Is it just me or is cuddling and making out the most sensual thing you can do? I love it and so many people don't. I rather do that then almost anything else. People don't seem to understand how powerful a kiss is. It's like the closest two souls can get; a connection between two people. It's one of those things that can never go bad, if it's with someone you really desire. Nothing is better then that electrifying kiss that you can feel though your entire body as soon as your lips touch. That is a perfect moment. Time slows down and no one else matters except for that person and that kiss. Maybe I'm just romanticizing a simple kiss, but never have I felt more complete and loved then when engaged in that simple kiss.